Oh, I’m just blue today.<\/p>\n
I am grateful for a great many things, but at the end of the day, I sometimes feel like my hands are empty. I have nothing to show for myself. It’s ridiculous of course; it’s just a mood, and it will pass eventually. All things must pass.<\/p>\n
I still play that little game, though, of finding small, normally inconsequential things, and holding them to the light. If I magnify all the many mundane things, they begin to sparkle in the light of my attention, and it’s not quite so gloomy in my head.<\/p>\n
So, today, I realized as I was driving home that when I take that left turn from the middle turn lane into my apartment complex, the car’s not squeaking like crazy. Back when I first lived here in NC, I had this Grand Prix that was already a decade old, and had not exactly weathered being towed behind my Penske truck when my friend Dave and I drove down from Chicago.<\/p>\n
It was an alright car, with its share of problems: no air conditioning to speak of, and an incredibly messed up driver’s side window. (And then, after the vents stopped working once I got the car to L.A.? Oh, it was murder<\/em> in the summer). But somehow, towing it all four wheels up on a dolly, chained in place, taking our time, it still pulled the whole frame just enough out of wack that the car began squeaking. It also occasionally thunked and made a grindy noise as well, but I am still in denial about that, so let us draw a veil over it.<\/p>\n But now I have this ridiculously-pristine Saturn that I bought off my friend Nova in Durham, and it’s probably the nicest car (overall) that I’ve ever owned. It doesn’t have the V6 get-up-and-go that the Pontiac had, and it’s a bit longer than the parking dream the Geo Metro was, but all the windows work, and it’s got air conditioning, and every time I drive home from work and make that left-hand turn into the complex, I don’t have to slow down nearly so much from the bumped incline of the entrance drive. I don’t need to ease the steering wheel back around so that the tire doesn’t thunk.<\/p>\n So even though I am a little blue today, I still laughed as I swung the car smoothly into the turn, remembering the ridiculous squeaking and thunking of that poor old Grand Prix.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Oh, I’m just blue today. I am grateful for a great many things, but at the end of the day, I sometimes feel like my hands are empty. I have nothing to show for myself. It’s ridiculous of course; it’s just a mood, and it will pass eventually. All things must pass. I still play […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-26","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.glitterbook.com\/2009\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.glitterbook.com\/2009\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.glitterbook.com\/2009\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.glitterbook.com\/2009\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.glitterbook.com\/2009\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=26"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.glitterbook.com\/2009\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":27,"href":"http:\/\/www.glitterbook.com\/2009\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/26\/revisions\/27"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.glitterbook.com\/2009\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=26"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.glitterbook.com\/2009\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=26"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.glitterbook.com\/2009\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=26"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}